A Bittersweet Ending

"You have called me higher. You have called me deeper, and I'll go where you will lead me Lord."

Thirteen years ago I begged my Mom to sign me up for gymnastics. Unfortunately, the days I would take classes didn't fit her work schedule, so my dreams of being a gymnast lasted for a solid week. I can't remember how or why I started playing ball, but for the last thirteen years softball has been mine and my family's entire life. They have supported me at as many games as they could be there for, and I say that because my Momma hasn't missed enough of my games to count on a single hand.

Today I had the hardest conversation of my entirely life, and the conversation was mainly with myself. Today I decided my softball career has come to an end. Luckily I can say it isn't because of an injury, or my teammates, or a losing record but because God's calling for my life has far exceeded the work I can put in on the diamond.

"And let the peace that comes from Christ rule in your hearts. For as members of one body you are called to live in peace. And always be thankful." Colossians 3:15

I couldn't possibly find peace with my decision without the support from my family, friends, and teammates but mainly from my parents. The bond I have with my father over softball is one of the strongest relationships I have in my entire life, and I was worried not playing anymore would change everything. I feel like God spoke to me through my Dad when he looked at me and said no matter what he just wanted me happy and healthy, and if that meant quitting softball then he would support me no matter what. It was a weight lifted off of my shoulders, and it was in that moment that I knew the decision not to play anymore was what is best for me and my future.

I owe so much gratitude to so many people who have been apart of my softball career. A Thank You to all of the people who have supported me since I was seven years old. The coaches. The teammates. The teachers and professors. This sport has given me so much in life and taught me so many lessons. I met my best friend through this sport, and our friendship will be a lifetime memory of all the goodness that comes out of being an athlete.

It's a little easier ending my career with a Conference Championship and a ring on the way, but it's even better knowing that my parents will always support me in my decisions. Anyone who knows me knows how my Mom is my best friend and a gift to me from God himself, but not many people understand how we became so close. All of those early morning road trips, late night/early morning games, two hour drives to travel ball practices and who knows how many games she drove me to and supported me from outside the fence. My Dad came to every single game he possibly could after he retired, and I am sure he will still be embarrassing me everywhere else besides the softball field. That's just who he is.

I have no worries of finding things to take up my time. In less than a week I will begin a chapter in my life that has been a dream since I was in elementary school. I am more than prepared to see what all God has in store for me as I begin my Junior year at LaGrange as a Nursing student. All the long nights have finally paid off, but they do not end now. I can only imagine what is behind God's plans for this year.

With Love & Laughter,

Alison